Prologue

I laid on my bed staring at my bedroom ceiling. It was so plain, so dull. Ii turned my pillow to the other side so that way it was cool. My red golden hair was in a mob of knots. It was 5:00 am, I felt like I only slept for 10 minutes. How could I sleep any longer?
James Smith and Lily Mathews are in a relationship. I watched them at school today. They were holding hands and looking into each others eyes as if nothing existed except for them. It was just the way James would hold her or touch her that made me have butterflies in my stomach. My heart was beating loudly." Sophie snaps out of it! “My head demanded, but I couldn't, No matter how much I tried my eyes wouldn't close. I decided to wrap myself in my purple robe and headed downstairs. The kitchen was spotless and my brown granite counters were shining. I grabbed a glass of water and went outside to sit on my porch. I looked inside the window of my truck on saw my father sleeping in the car seat with one hand on the wheel and another with a beer bottle in his hand. How surprising I said in my mind sarcastically.
My father was an alcoholic ever since my mother left him to run away with Mr. Anderson to London, England. I got one postcard from my mother ever summer. She only asks how I’m doing and if my father had stopped drinking yet. Yes, I have a wonderful mother.
I had to handle my family issues at home and at school. Why? Well Mr. Anderson left his family too to run away with my mother. Nathan Anderson hated me for it. I hated him too. We were even. Everyday Nathan and I would have a fight. Things can go pretty bad, let's just say he puts a worm in my lunch and I put a spider in his locker. It’s a simple word. Revenge. I leaned back on my rocking chair and sighed.
I wish I could get away from Windsor. I wish I could go somewhere were nobody could find me. Somewhere were I could have an adventure romance. But where? Where?

Chapter 1
" Hey Soph!" My good friend Melissa greeted me at my locker.
" Hey can you believe the school year almost ends? Four more weeks. Just four." I slammed my locker door and pushed my hair to the side.
" Well, it’s not over yet" she sighed and twirled her black hair around her finger.
" I know I'll see you at band okay?" I turned around and headed to science. The one class where I had to put up with Nathan as a lab partner.
As I entered the class Nathan Hazel eyes stared at me. I sat next to him and sighed.
" I'll try to not fight if you promise the same" I opened my textbook and folded my hands on my lap.
" Don't make me laugh" Nathan yawned and closed his eyes and layed his head on the desk.
I hated how I tried to not fight but he always wanted to. Des he have better things to do than fight with me. It's like it has become a to do list in his agenda at the end of the day
" Pick up a fight with Sophie" I scoffed.
Nathan looked up at me.
" Pardon me?”
Huh? Nothing just talking to myself" I turned my face away from his and smiled. Why do I always have to talk out loud?
“Alright put 5 ml of water in the cylinder" I directed.
He scoffed.
" Do we really have to do this?" He stared at me.
" Yes, unless you want to fail science" I smiled and put the cylinder in his hand.
" Well of course, your a straight A student that fantasizes about stupid dreams, like for example oh I hope he kisses me today, news flash Sophie nobody is going to kiss you. Nobody." He said in a very harsh loud voice. He scoffed and looked at my face.
I bit my lip. I felt tears coming up my eyes. I hated him. I hated him.
" oh sorry Soph-"
" No it's okay your right I do fantasize about stupid things and of course nobody will like me because i'm not popular or " HOT" but ill tell you one thing Nathan I'm smart and I know that I will never ever be around guys like you!" I said very loudly.
The bell rang and Nathan still stared at me with that Imp sorry face.
I took my books and ran out the door.
Four more weeks and Ill be at the University of Gulp. Four more weeks. Just four.
At band practice I told Melissa about the fight Nathan and I had.
" Wow I think this is the worst thing he could have ever said to you" Melissa said twirling her hair around her finger quicker than usual.
" No there will be even more things that he will say to offend me but I don’t care. Just four more weeks Melissa! Just four stupid weeks and we'll never see each other again!" I was breathing hard and my eyes were welling up with tears.
Melissa grabbed my hand.
"Sophie your such a strong girl, I admire you for that" Melissa said in a soft voice.
" Alright everyone grab your instruments and turn to page 62 in your music books" Mr. Palker commanded.
I raised my flute to my lips. I couldn’t concentrate on the notes. Nathan was standing right in front of me. Staring at me with his big hazel eyes. His brown hair was long and was hanging on his forehead almost covering half of his left eye. He wouldn't play the trumpet. He would only stare at me. The whole 50 minute class he would stare at me.
I walked home and my mind was seeing myself waling in the doors of the University of Guelph. I was about to cross Harrow Rd but someone grabbed my hand. It as Nathan.
" What do you want?" I asked sharply forcing my hand out of his.
" I'm sorry" He said softly.
I turned away and walked a couple of steps and turned back around
" Why?"
" Why what?"
" Why are you apologizing, you don’t think I noticed when you were staring at me at band" I crossed my arms to my chest.
" It just came out I didn’t mean to say it" he looked down at the ground.
" Nathan I find it really hard to trust you" I walked a couple of steps forward that I was a foot away from him.
" I know look I don't wan tot fight anymore" Nathan said stepping a step forward.
" And why not? You seem like you always have fun doing it" I laughed and walked away.
" Well I don't" He shouted.
I turned back around.
" Goodbye Nathan"
I ran across the street until I reached my blue house with white shutters.
I opened the door with my house key and slammed the door. I ran upstairs and slammed my door. I looked at my rectangular mirror that was taller than me. I breathed loudly. I grabbed my purple yellow and screamed into it. I looked again at the mirror and saw my blue eyes huge and wide. I looked at my outfit. It was just a dark green buttoned shirt with a collar and plain blue jeans. My pink flip flops were dirty with mud.
I wasn't outrageously beautiful. I was just cute or pretty. Maybe Nathan was right. I will never find a guy for me. I'm too quiet and not sexy. But I didn’t care. If I was going to have a boyfriend I wanted him to accept who I am. I sighed and smiled. I’m not going to change myself to please others. This is me. This is Sophie.
" Sophie, it's me I'm heading to the beer store I’ll be back later" My dad knocked on my door.
I opened the door to see my dad's old face look tired and worn out. He was wearing worn out jeans and a black t-shirt.
"Okay dad" I smiled.
He managed a smile and poked my cheek and ran down the stairs.
He left and I was once again alone like I always am.
I made Kraft Dinner for myself and ate it quietly. My house was so old. The flowery wall paper was peeling off the walls in my kitchen. My dining table was old and the brown had turned light. I walked slowly to the living room and sat on my black leathered couch. I turned my medium sized TV and flipped through channels. I found the discovery channel and watched about animals. I almost fell asleep until I heard the doorbell ring.
I opened my door to my surprise to see James at my door.
" Hi how can I help you?" I looked up at James.
Oh my was he gorgeous. His brown eyes were so big and his blonde hair was long around the sides. He was wearing a basketball jersey that said Billups and baggy jeans.
"Yes well hi im looking for Nathan's house could you direct me how to get there?"
Why was James looking for Nathan's house? I could recall they weren’t best friends.
" Um he lives four doors down Lily's house" I said.
"Oh perfect! Thank you and sorry to bother you" He smiled and waved good bye
" No problem."
I closed the door behind me

If only I was Lily...but I'm not.
I walked back to my living room and sat back down on my black leathered sofa. I lifted my legs and crossed legged them on the couch. I picked the remote slowly and flipped through the channels. Nothing. There was nothing on TV.
The house was so quiet. I could almost hear myself think. Im missing something. Maybe I need a dog...or a cat.
I sat down in my dining room table and twiddled my thumbs.
Nope, Nothing to think about.
I walked back up the stairs to my room and laid on my back on my bed. The ceiling was so dull, it was painted light brown. My things were all yellow or purple. Purple sheets, yellow pillows. My desk was light brown as well. I had yellow tulips in a brown vase on my desk. I wanted to scream I was so bored. All my homework was done. I had nothing to do. I wanted to call Melissa up and ask her if she wanted to do something but it was 11.
I decided to grab my iPod and blasted my earphones. Suddenly the phone rang/. I ran downstairs quickly to the living room to get my phone.
“Hello?" I said desperately.
" Sophie! It's Melissa you will never guess what happened!" Melissa's voice was with enthusiasm.
" What happened?"
" There's a party downtown at the Marino club and I'm going. Do you want to go?"
" But it’s a school night"
" Oh Sophie how forgetful can you be? There's no school tomorrow P.A day"
" Oh well I suppose I could go" I twirled the cord line around my finger.
" WOOT! Alright Ill be you up in ten"

" Okay bye"
"bye"
I hung up the phone and ran upstairs.
What was I suppose to wear? I had nothing. I took my white skirt that flared at the sides and my Dark blue halter top. I straightened my hair quickly with my straighter and put eye liner and mascara on.
When I looked in the mirror my red golden hair was below my chest.
I left a note saying to my dad I was out. I knew he was probably not going to get it.
I went outside and waited on my porch. Melissa drove out with her black jeep
" Come on!" She shouted.
I ran and opened the car door.
" Do I look decent?" I asked.
" Yes you look hot!" Melissa cheered.
Melissa was wearing a purple halter topped dress. Her hair was curly instead of pin straight and she had a silver necklace on.
" This is going to be so much fun there's suppose to be a lot of hot guys there so keep a look out"
I giggled. I was glad I was out of my house. I could just imagine myself lying on my bed staring at the ceiling.
When we got there was a lot of people out in line.
“How are we supposed to get in? I didn’t bring any money!"
" Oh Sophie don't worry my mom gave me 20 dollars for us both" She smiled and parked the car.
" I'll pay you back"
" Sophie, relax have fun!"
We got out of the jeep and waited in line for what seemed like 2 hours but were only 15 minutes.
Once we got in there were disco balls and red lights and so many people dancing. Rap music was on and couples were dancing and flirting.
A couple of people from band were there and we went to say hi. I spotted Lily and James holding hands talking to Nathan. I gulped. I didn’t want him to be here. I turned away form looking at them and concentrated on the conversation Melissa was having with band mates.
" Let's dance Sophie!" Melissa grabbed my hands and leaded me to the dance floor.
I started jumping and twirling around and lifting my hands up. Melissa grabbed my hands and twirled me around. I was having a lot of fun.
I was twirling around until somebody grabbed my waist. To my surprise it was Nathan. I forced myself out of his arms and sighed.
" What do want to do? Ruin my fun?"
" No I came to apologize to you again"
" Not again! Nathan you don't have to I'm used to all of those insults form you okay?"
He sighed.
" But that time I really didn't mean it" He took me by the shoulders and looked straight at my eyes.
" I'm sorry" He said loudly and freed me.
" Fine your forgiven now let me have fun okay?"
" Fine" He walked away.
Phew I could finally sit down.
The bartender asked me for a drink.
" I'll just have a beer"
It turned out that I had a few and I was drunk.
Melissa and I were dancing out on the dance floor like crazy. Jumping up and down twirling around laughing. I felt really dizzy but I kept on spinning.
It was a slow song and all the couples were dancing.
I was sitting down with Melissa on the couch with band members. Then someone tapped my shoulder.
" Hello my name is Jordon would you like to dance?" He asked.
He was tall and had glasses. He wasn't very good looking but he seemed like a nice guy.
" um, okay"
He took my hand and lead me to the dance floor. I saw Nathan and his eyes were on me.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and he put his hands on my waist. We moved side to side slowly.
" So what’s your name?" He asked me.
" Sophie"
" So you single"
" Yes"
"You know there’s a room upstairs.." He pulled me closer
" Want to go up?"
" Ew" I let go of his neck and pushed away.
H pulled me to his chest.
" Come on live a little"
" Ew no let go of me" I tried to pull back put I couldn’t.
" Come on baby just for a little while"
" Stop, HELP"
Nathan took my hand and pulled me out of his arms.
" Hey back off of her" Nathan took my hand.
" Hey she was dancing with me" He yelled.
" Well not anymore" Nathan pushed him a little and let go of my hand.
" Alright you want to go?" Jordon pushed him to the ground and before I knew it they were both on the ground tackling each other.
" STOP!" I yelled.
Two guys came and broke them up.
" Come on Sophie let's get out of here" Nathan took my arm and lead me to the door. I noticed his arm and face was bleeding.
I got in his truck and I was so confused. I felt very dizzy and awkward. He got in the car and started the engine.
It was silent for a moment and finally I spoke.
" Thank you" I said looking out the window.
" Your welcome"
I looked at him and he was bleeding a lot.
" Oh my god I have to help you"
" No Sophie it's nothing"
" yes it is and look at your arm"
We got to my house and I made him come inside. My father was sleeping in the car again.
I lead him to my Kitchen and made him sit down on a chair. I grabbed cotton balls and alcohol.
" This is gonna sting" I took his arm and rubbed it with alcohol.
" Ah bloody hell" He said softly
" Sorry"
I could feel his eyes on me while I was treating him.
" What were you thinking dancing with Jordon?"
I looked at him in confusion.

" oh my Sophie you were even more drunk than ever! Don't you remember Jordon Wood?" he asked.
"No"
“Jordon Smith was the druggie last year that got expelled." He chuckled.
" oh my god I remember now! Ew! He could have... oh my god" I sat down beside him.
" Is that why you protected me?" I asked putting a and aid on his Arm.
:" Yes, trust me if it were some other jerk trying to get you to sell yourself I would punch him too" He chuckled.
" Well thank you again" I put a band aid on his face and sighed.
" Is your mom gonna worry about you?"
" No she works late"
" Oh" I
took my high heels off and grabbed two glasses of water.
" Hopefully I won't be that drunk anymore if I take this"
" I must say you dance very interesting" He cleared his throat.
" Are you making fun of me again?"
" No, no of course not just saying you’ve got interesting dance moves there all the twirling it's very modern" H laughed.
" haha very funny"
" I'm sorry it's my job to tease you"
" Yes I know."
I took a sip of water and sighed.
" I should get going though if your father wakes up and sees me here hell kill me” He laughed
" Okay" I walked him to the door.
" Well good night and don't drink anymore please" He smiled and walked out.
" Bye" I shouted.
I ran upstairs and laid on my bed.
What was happening to me? I was blushing?
Oh no.
Oh no.